http://parkerwayne2010.tumblr.com/

There’s only one post on there, but I’m just letting everyone know that I will no longer be using this tumblr and if you would like to follow me and read up on my transition, this would be the place to go.

Thank you,

-Parker.

A lot of things are going to begin changing in my life, folks. BIG things.

I have recently been struggling quite a bit with anxiety and have been trying to figure out the route of it, well, I have finally figured that out. I am not comfortable in the body I am in. I constantly feel like I am being stared at. I have no realized that I am not supposed to be a woman. I am in the very very beginning stages of transitioning from Female to Male. I am currently looking into different psychologists that I can talk to and get a reference to be able to start Testosterone. This won’t be happening for at least another year, but right now my next step is ordering a binder this Friday when I get paid. NO MORE BOOBIES! I cannot express to you how excited I am about this. The majority of my close friends know and are still getting used to using he/his pronouns, and calling me by my new name, Parker. I have been telling people, “use whatever makes you comfortable for now.” I understand that it is going to be a very long journey and is going to take everyone some time to get used to, even myself.

As far as family goes, I am terrified, but that’s normal, right? I plan on telling my sister first, then my brother, then my parents. I am not completely sure of how to do this, so I have a feeling that it is going to just come out like word vomit. I honestly don’t know how any of them will react, but I need to do this sooner rather than later.

As far as Lily and I go, we are amazing. I love that girl so fucking much and she is being 100% supportive of my decision. I don’t know what I would do with that her. I know that ultimately, this is my decision, but she has been a huge part of helping me figure out that this is what I need to do. I have a hell of a long way to go from here, so if any of you have ANY advice at all, or know anyone who has transitioned, whether it be FTM or MTF, I could seriously use some wise words.

Yours Truly,

Parker Wayne Schoon

I cannot wait for the day that I can walk freely in the world being my honest self. I am aware that this is vague, I will keep you posted.

Until then,
-Morgan.

I feel like I’m getting too far ahead of myself, yet I know I have so far to go. Learning how to be me is interesting…